Saturday, July 09, 2005

It's been more than one month since I update. I really dont know what to say even If i had alot to say. All this is sort of private thus I wont bring this up to say.
I had sort of being very unhappy throughout this whole month. Things had not really go my way and i feel sick. Maybe im too sensitive or what, I felt im excluded in many things.
But i know it's my fault so i can only wallop in my own misery. The reason for this is the way i am. I am this kind of person who dont know how to interact with others. It very hard for me to take the first step. I dont know how to start a conversation whatsoever. I sometime think i want to be left alone but sometime i really want someone to talk to me. I feel the barrier with every person, the barrier that i set. I really want to break it down. I hate myself for it, really I do. Why am I like this, so timid and so useless. I only know to escape reality. that's the best thing i do.

i'm tired. I want to change. I need to change. I must change. I will work toward that. Support me K!
Thanks!
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